We've been home a week today. How quickly time goes by.
We returned to the gentlest of snowfalls, and the fastest of snowmelts.
The sunniest of sunshines (for February).
And the Spring-ests of Winters.
It warmed up to 40 F this week. I took photos outdoors and we went about without jackets, if briefly. And this evening, I sat in the garage in running shorts and Tshirt, after a bout on the treadmill, to sand some wood pieces for a project.
In spite of this kindest of homecomings, we miss Singapore. We miss its warm pools and happy beaches. We miss the shorts, the swimsuits, the golden sun. We miss the funny food. We miss the many exciting ways to get around the city - the multicolored taxis, the double-decker buses, the trains, our own flip-flop-shod feet. We miss the markets and the tiny stores that have everything you might need and then some. We miss the friends who took time off work to travel to be with us. We miss Grandma and Grandpa and all the cousins who are so much older than the girls that they don't quite know how to address them. We miss the wild spontaneity of being on vacation and being able to choose obsession (swimming every day in the same pool) over variety (swimming in other pools).
The first night we were home, we made ourselves stay up to pretty close to a decent bedtime before conking out. We were up a few hours later, semi-lucid and thinking about what Grandma and Grandpa were doing at that very hour halfway across the world. Emily cried for quite a while because she missed them. She has never cried about missing people before, and least of all at 3 in the morning. Or 5. I don't remember. I was close to tears, too, but mostly because I was desperate to get back to bed and not carry out emergency counseling sessions with my own children in the wee hours.
We love being home. From the first moment we stepped through the door, dropped our suitcases on the floor and ran through the house, smelling the air and scrutinizing our bedrooms, we felt elated to be back. But -oh - the disorientation! What do we do first? Is there milk in the fridge? Why am I not hungry? Why am I ravenous? Why do I feel so sad? Why do I feel so excited to unpack? Where do I put all this STUFF?
It felt strange not hearing Mum and Dad's voices, even though mentally we knew we - not they - were the ones who left. It felt strange being Queen of a kitchen again. It felt strange to the kids to be in their own little beds and not cuddle together in Grandma's and Grandpa's big one (G&G had slept out in the living room), telling stories till they dropped off to sleep (or till someone went in to tell them off). It felt strange looking at each other's tanned faces, thinking how completely out of place they looked against the scanty snow on the brown trees outside.
And then, slowly, it began to feel normal. We got out the old carousel filled with markers and made Valentines for school the next week. We shook out our snow pants and packed them in backpacks and totes. We wrote out grocery lists and went shopping to stock the fridge. We bought fresh bread and bananas, and baked chocolate chip cookies and muffins. We ran on the treadmill and danced in our leotards and tutus. We sifted through email and newspapers and whatever the Postie brought. We reset our watches. We cooked meatloaf and scalloped potatoes and ham and tossed salads. We played computer games and wrote blog posts. We did a full week of Mad Chauffeuring to and from school. We went to a birthday party and a school conference.
Today I finished folding the last basket of laundry that had been left from before the trip. And I went to Home Depot for supplies begin crafting again. I thought of Dad, but with mirth, remembering how he'd practically camp out there in his orange shirt last summer, buying wood to build our picnic table, looking suspiciously like an employee or shameless fan.
Tomorrow we have friends over for a playdate. And on the weekend we'll watch movies, do groceries, drink soup, build wooden and cardboard structures, maybe even plug the machine in to do a little sewing.
It's good to be home. But there is a little part of me that I left behind at the Equator, that calls it home, too. I like knowing that it's there and that there is so much richness in both places that define me. Have I ever shared this verse that I previously never gave a second glance to but now makes me smile? Here it is:
"The (boundary) lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance." - Ps 16:6.
It is always hard to say hello and goodbye over and over again, but I am grateful that the Lord has always planted me where (as they say in Sesame Street) the air is sweet :)

















































